im starting to believe that humans can go without food after all. its a nice feeling. you feel light. but you feel weak. and all you feel like doing is lay in bed all day long. and thats what i did. with the rain. and that bloody bolt of thunder which made me jump. i guess our tear ducts are more active on rainy days. and so i cried along with the rain. and amidst the sniffing and sighing, i managed a smile or two. this has gotta stop im freakin myself out.

that feeling, its not sth everyone can feel i suppose. i wouldnt say im one of the 'lucky ones' cos trust me you feel rotten. its so see-sawish if you get what i mean. one min ure up, the other min ure down. hahaha.

i dont think things are up to me now. i dont think i have the final say. wait, do i even HAVE to say sth. oh well, follow your heart. i guess its the most truthful guide. i daresay i'l be fine if i were to lose you. this is life, isnt it?

one. d
two. snaps
three. xring then
four. xring always
five. elt.

12345 a palm . a slap. OWCH.

you only know the importance of a person when ure about to lose em. its okay. i'l take things in my stride. why think about stuffs that you have absolutely no control over? hey! i think ive grown taller in many ways. hahaha. il take this thing cool and easy. oh yes, and with a smile. theres always the happy memories, right? I STILL LOVE YOU ! coughs. and im sick ): mommys gonna skin me alive.