this is gonna be some random shit. its exactly what im thinking. and its messy, really messy.

the hardest thing is to listen to someone you care for talk about the person she cares for.
and that person is not you.
but i guess feelings need not necessarily be reciprocated.
it would be so unreal.

ive run out of words.
i feel mute.
i wish i was mute.

its not easy helping a depressed person when ure in depression.
but im not complaining.
maybe i am.
because it hurts.
it hurts because ure hurt.

and i can just stand by the side and do nothing about it?
FUCK.
i hate this.
i wish there was sth i could do but im all too aware that theres nth.
uve gotta realise things urself and get over it.

but i know even then, i'l never be able to take a step closer to your heart.
cos uve blocked out everything.

but its not wrong to hope right?
so i'l just hope that someday i'l be that someone who can, and will enter your life.
cos i know im not in it. at least not at this moment.
not at all.
even though it might seem like i am.

BAH. screw this shit.

i can just go on like this forever. cos theres sucha burning desire to pour out my heart here. but
NO! hahaha

i love this therapy. yes, therapy.